WHAT I WANT TO SAY TO THE WORLD
Пост обновлен 13 мая 2019 г.
My Style, My Vision, My Soul
I have been developing my style for many years, starting from teenage when I was in love with Chinese painting and calligraphy. I practiced brush strokes for many hours then. Later I was drawing some abstract things only with strong and quick lines. With time it all gone through a bit of transformation and came into my oil paintings.
For me my paintings are ‘isolines of my soul’. Lines of tension and movement directing the flow of the brush strokes. The ideas for my works often come out of nowhere, all of a sudden. Suddenly I see something in an ordinary landscape which makes me flinch. I feel inside me a cluster of some tension which needs to be released. At that moment the movement starts - quick or slow, sharp or fluent, which I transfer to canvas. I can call this the flow - flow of the energy of my feelings, my mind, my soul.
Sometimes I have a theme or even themes I want to paint. I keep them in mind and just wait to catch a moment when I see something and get the answer. It may take time even years to find and feel the right impulse. But I am always ready for that.
The main subject for me is the Nature with its forces and energy. It contains chaos and regularity at the same time. For me the ‘isolines’ have organizing function – they restrain and arrange the chaos for us and let it flow.
I love to paint trees. The outlines of trunks and branches can tell a lot. In the forest the trees are straight and tall. They strive for light and sun. Trunks and branches which are open to constant winds often succumb to the direction of the prevailing winds. I paint young trees, old trees, some are solo, some are interacting with one another - leaning on each other or diverging. Every tree for me is like one’s life with its own energy and story, imprinted in every bend.
I almost never include people into my painting. For me the hero is the one who is looking at the work. I think that in that case we better feel our own personal involvement into the process.
The time of the art of painting, as many modern art-critics say, nowadays is passing, because of new technologies which bring to life new art forms. This might be true in some way. But on the other hand fine arts are still alive and are in demand. We can’t look into the future and say what it will be like in 100 or 200 years. Making prophecies is thankless and wrong. May be our descendants become robotized, or the mankind will destroy itself or the tired nature will destroy everything... but we are here today living in chaotic times, overloaded with tons of information, social networks, news. And our minds are full and we still have feelings, emotions and soul, which long for contemplation and juxtaposition with nature and arts.
For whom do I create my paintings? Certainly in the first place I paint because I cannot but do it; I release the tension inside me and thus express myself- my internal status and my attitude to the world . But I also know that I paint in order to tell people how important it is just to make a stop and to open one’s eyes and see, listen, feel. We can see so many things just when we tune ourselves for that, everything in the world is moving, flowing, connected, interpenetrated. And when we observe with all our senses we can find the contact with the meaning important for us.
Since the beginning of the 20th century the art became very exclusive thing which not all people can understand, especially in postmodernists world. But people need art for their hearts. I feel myself somewhere in the middle between the contemporary art and traditional (I think for most people today traditional would be some mix of realistic and impressionist). When people see my works they understand them - the images are clear: trees, sea, lake, wind, rain. On the other hand people feel what I want to express with my isolines - the movement, the energy flow, interconnection of the forces of nature such as water, air, earth, and our inclusion in these processes.
I know that people would find and feel not only my idea which I put into my works. I feel very happy when people find and feel something different. It is like the metaphoric cards in psychology when everyone finds his or her own meaning from the image. Our world is so full of meanings for everyone, everyone sees one’s own aspects in the same things. And that makes us all unique humans.
Every my painting has its own story behind. Most of them originate from real moments with real trees, lakes and seas. Beyond that every work has its own life-story of creation. Often I can hear from people who are far from the arts that it is “so beautiful and great to live such an inspirational life and create-create-create with inspiration”. There might be some artists who can permanently feel the inspiration, but I am definitely not among them. When I work - I just live a whole life together with my painting. And inspiration here is far from being the most important. I even don’t know whether l ever experience it (except when getting the idea of the future work and making a sketch). I just live with my painting, grow it like a baby, talk with it, feel happy when something goes well, grumble and argue with it (sometimes I even feel like doing a battle) when something goes wrong. It is like a child which doesn’t always obey. And the result is often not like I expected in the beginning, sometimes the painting starts to “dictate” or just “asks” for the changes, or “suggests”some new ideas and vision (just the same like children - you give them a lot but they grow up and become persons not always as you expected them to be). One of the hardest moments in the work is to finish it, to get separated from it. With an eye of a perfectionist I always find something to correct and the process can be endless. And then I need to make a decision to stop. For that I do a little ritual and break my brushes which I used for the work. And new brushes and a new sketch should always be ready for the next day.